Thursday, December 4, 2014

ch-ch-ch-changes

Change.
Its part of life.
Because life is fluid.
That simple realization doesn't make it any easier.

Change is hard.
But so, so relevant.
and needed.

I'm gonna tell you about my recent changes and such now.
Prepare for some rambling...

Guess what?
I'm no longer at the hospital.
I'm no longer working as an ortho/trauma nurse, which I've loved for the last year and a half.
My first nursing love.
Really??
who would have thought...
So, You work 12+ hours a day.
3 days a week (and sometimes more depending on whether or not they really need you up there).
Along side some pretty fabulous nurses, doctors, residents, techs...
Like as in - inyourface - up close and personal.

You share in their struggles, the patients that want to jump out of bed the minute you get in your groove for the night, the laughter, the delirious hour once 3am hits and you find solace and comfort in their presence.
You have some time to share your lives, the good/the bad/the crazy family (because you know, we all have a little crazy in all of our families...)
You develop a relationship - bonds even, with certain people, and they carve a place out in your heart.

Then, you leave, and it's gone.
now what?

Yeah there will always be Facebook and hanging out after jobs but its not the same.

my new normal:
Hospice.

hos·pice

noun \ˈhäs-pəs\
: a place that provides care for people who are dying


It's palliative.
Not curative.
I'm Going 360* in the other direction.
And I'm okay with that.
I will still be caring for people and making a difference in their lives.
That's what I'm all about anyway.
They won't even have a chance to "remember" me.
That's not what I'm going for.
Because everyone deserves dignity.
Even in the haze of dementia and delirium - they are still people.
People who have lived full lives (mostly) who have just declined physically and need a little more help.
People who need comfort from pain and the physical harshness that comes along with aging.
People who are moving from this world to another infinite, perfect place and need a little monitoring along that process.

That's what I'll be doing from here on out.
I'll be going to their homes, checking on them, being a small part of their lives for a small period of time.
And it's a totally new experience.
I won't be working side by side with nurses that can see and feel my every frustration and triumph.
I won't be running from room to room to see if my patients are okay or need anything.
I won't be scrutinizing over lab values and vital signs trying to figure out what is wrong/needed when things are askew.

It's a lot to take in right now.
But hopefully it will become my new normal sooner than later.
I'll be home with my family more and on a more normal schedule.
Finally, I'll be able to say T.G.I.F. again.
[but there is still no such thing as holidays...]

a nurse is a nurse is a nurse..
and that's what I am.











8 comments:

  1. We are so very proud of you!!! Hopefully soon, you will be back to your new normal. I think that Hospice is an amazing career choice and very thankful to have a nurse with such compassion and patience as yourself, im certain!! That's great you will be able to sirens more time with that beautiful family is yours as well. I loved reading your blog as usual and catching up with what's going on in your life!!
    Lots of love!!xoxo Pat and Pam

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    1. Aww Pam [& Pat] I love you both!!! and miss you so much!
      Hope things are still well with yall ;)
      things certainly do change, huh...
      hospice is a little scary too - something totally new to get used to.
      But I think it will be a good choice.

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  2. Hospice nurses are angels on earth! May the Lord continue to bless you and your family through this transition. Let your light shine! Love you :)

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    1. thanks Andrea ;) I'm sure this new adventure will give me TONS to think about. Hope you are well, friend! Happy Friday!

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  4. I loved this post, Misty. It's so full of feeling. Having just had two relatives on hospice, I want to thank you so much for what you do. I know how hard that was for us and having the kind nurses there reassuring us and supporting us in the process was amazing. It made everything seem less scary and unnatural. Scott's mom was a night nurse working 3 days a week for most of his childhood, then she switched to a 9-5 nursing job more on the administrative side of things and I know she has said how rewarding and enhancing both experiences have been to her life. Wishing you the best in this next chapter and thank you again for what you do!

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    1. Devon, thank you! This means so much to me!! Hospice is a totally different approach to what I've been doing but so far, I love it. I love going into the home & getting to know the same families and patients every week!! But I can definitely feel the whole attachment thing too. They are probably about to move me to one of their assisted living facilities & I'm really going to miss my families already. You develop special bonds, ya know?? ;)
      I've definitely been rewarded in my career in only a year and a half.
      Next up: surfing ;)

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