Sunday, November 4, 2012
*** disclaimer: this might be a little depressing***
it's hard to say if it's hormones.. exhaustion.. my "fat" jeans fitting snugly.. the time change..
i could blame it on a lot of things.
that's what we do, right??
whatever it is, something's gotta change.
and i have to change to fix it.
and i really want to.
i can't just ignore it anymore.
besides the fact that my only option is to buy "up" a size, the scales don't lie.
i'm not gonna diet.
i have to be more active.
i have worked out two days in a row.
i know it's not much, but y'all, this is the most consecutive it's been in a long while.
two. days. in. a. row.
gotta start somewhere.
and i think that somewhere in there, in being more active, i'll find that it will lift my mood.
what - with all those new endorphins and such coursing through my veins.
well, maybe not coursing, but a few extra endorphins won't hurt a thing.
and i haven't been to church in a few sunday's.
mainly because hailee's had a cold that she just can't shake, so i've stayed home with her.
BUT, just friday, i was asked to co-lead worship for the friday night U-Turn for Christ service.
and it was my favorite type of worship music: just me, another person, and our 2 guitars.
acoustic worship is my absolute favorite.
man, have i missed it.
again, something has to change.
I - have to put forth the effort i know it takes to get back in that one-on-one relationship with God, that just isn't what it used to be.
i need this.
if anything, in doing that, it will lift my mood.
because that's where i need to be.
school is school
and i have until may. MAY!!
oh, may... hurry up!
SO... instead of studying, i decided to write.
and this is what i came up with:
at 9:30 PM